today was a great day!
i successfully resisted my dad's attempt to make me go to my bro's stupid buffet. in the end i received a very nice ____ from him. but but but! i made it out of my house to meet my dear BEEBEE!

we met and then we went walking in the rain! what a nice time. altho my slippers kept getting sand in em, but it was nice talking to bee on our way to 201:)
took 12 to EXPOOOO!
good things and bad stuff both happened at Expo :(
good stuff first, bee got her two shirts for work that starts tmr! and we got adidas perfume, she got some flora smelling one and i got FRESH VIBES. smells abit like peppermint and stuff. i like it :) and she got some nice nice slippers and a nice top that looks like edhardy and i got a lame picture frame that was on sale! TWO DOLLARS ONLY. good deal. *winkwink*

then we went to the toilet, i pulled down my pants and my wallet fell out of my back pocket, i placed it on top of the toilet paper thingy. then i happily went out AND FORGOT ABOUT MY WALLET. i still stupidly had time to look at my hair and slowly wash my hands. SOME FREAKING AUNTIE WHO WENT TO THE TOILET TOOK IT! SOME INCONSIDERATE DISHONEST OLD BITCH! plus, my wallet had NO MONEY IN IT. neither did it have my ic, but it had my EZ LINK CARD! AND THE WALLET WAS THE FIRST THING THAT _____ GAVE ME!

so i cried :( then i went to the info counter to report loss. then i saw zena, and ms wong on a date with mr tan. then i called my mama. :( i made all the calls to cancel the ez link card and stuff, then like a bright shining light, bee cheered me up with some burger king goodness:) then i was happy while munching on fries.

then we decided to go to tampines mall! we walked around, first time baby played drums with me at the arcade! she was good for a beginner :) i'll teach you drums okay bee! you'll be super pro in no time :) we went to isetan and tried on clothes :)
bee bought me board shorts and billabong tee. i added some colour into my rather dull wardrobe :) soon i'll get rainbow coloured clothes okay. saw donn at fox!

we went to buy bee's working skirt at THISFASHION. bahaha :) we wanted to go to Ehub and play rockband but we decided to play more drums at the arcade heh. then we ate some chicken chop! and then we saw simphoni and a friend of bee who's name i forgot heh. then we went home :)

today was a greaaat day! tmr bee is starting work, i wish her luck! :)

hello all!~
today is a boring day. i woke up at about 1plus in the afternoon. i feel so unmotivated!

tomorrow someone's starting work! my poor girl i'm going to miss you and i hope you won't fall sick or anything. :) have fun at work!

tmr my stupid brother is having the marriage ceremonial tea ceremony. some buffet too.
hmmm but whats the point? he alrd fucked the china woman and their baby girl is alr more than one month old. he moved out without even saying a word, he basically only keeps in contact with my dad.
whats the point of doing the ceremonial tea ceremony when you didn't have the basic respect to inform everyone you were gonna get "married" with this random china woman and she alr gave birth to a baby. whats up with the pre maritial sex? if you're trying to prove that you're "capable" and is able to support a family of your own, this isn't proving anything.
when i got news of you crashing your rented car into a stationary squad car i fucking laughed my intestines out.
nothing you do will ever make me consider that i have a brother in the first place.

i can never forget the very faithful day that you went bonkers high on drugs and whacked mummy's arm until she got a huge bruise. and you broke the antique chair that mummy and papa worked so hard to buy in order to make this home a nice one.
i can never forget the day you broke jie's room door, and it ended up without a fucking doorknob, we had to tie a nylon string through the hole that was once the doorknob and connect it to the beside table.
i can never forget that i had to look out at the corridor before i opened the door to home just in case someone else was following me back home, cause of your fucking loan sharks caused by you.
i can never forget walking to school in the mornings and seeing your fucking unit number sprawled on the wall in spray paint saying "O$P$".
i can never forget that you made my father cry.

i'm much happier in this family when you were in jail. at least i know that no one will come knocking on my door in the middle of the night. and my house will never smell like cigarette smoke.
i'm much happier now that you don't live here anymore.


maybe its cause of you i never got to go overseas anymore? maybe its cause of you we never really go out as a family anymore. i still remember a few years back we would always go out as a family to eat dinner outside, just for a treat. now that just rarely happens, or never ever happens at all.

so what if i smoke? so what if i have an attitude problem? so what if i'm lazy and unmotivated to study, so what if i steal? i've stopped all that. i admit, i say some hurtful stuff to my parents. i do things to make them disappointed. but i vow to never become such an ungrateful fucker like you.

maybe its also cause of you that i never ever receive praise from my family. but i think its cause they dont ever want me to become an ungrateful fucker like you. its their way of motivating me, just in a much harsher way.

i'm gonna let myself become a fucker like you, i'm gonna study, go way past where you were, a retarded drop out from poly without a diploma, i'm gonna get a good job, and earn tons of money. not like you, acting rich with the car and condo and shit. you're just a fucker that has never achieved anything, and just caused suffering to the people around you.


phew. at least that's out of my system.

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thursday
met bee and went to eat swensons:)she ate fish and chips
went to get a kite and two yo-yos lol. such childish things we do.
went over to the open field near downtown, the new road, and flew our kite. although there wasn't much wind we managed to make it fly high :)

today
skipped school for a meet up with bee.
blah at the start it was bad. don't wanna talk about it.
flew the kite and bee made the kite get stuck in the tree. its the picture of an eagle so i guess the eagle wanted to stay in the tree. she got it stuck so she managed to un-stuck it! :)

we learnt rollerblading! fucking fell on my ass countless times and was just clinging onto the railings at first. but i did it! i learnt how to rollerblade! finally. bee was so pro alr lo. zoom here zoom there. but she fell twice! so therefore i am not the bad. exhausted like hell ah. but addictive.

we ate komala's! some indian version of fast food. indian food with coke! we had paper thosai i think. i like the green mushy stuff with the red chilli inside. god knows what the hell the sauce is but i like it. and i love coke~ that fizzy fizzy drink that gives the most comfortable feeling.

went to play "balance wrestling" at the balancing beam at some random fitness corner. haha made me think back on my primary school days. fun shiat :)

today was a very very fun day! i returned home lazing around on mirinda orange and the stupid frozen chicken wings my mom bought. and i messed around with the electric keyboard just now, playing the dj mode and electronic drums. but something made me so pissed off!



i want to go jamming! argh its just bloody bad timing that hj has examinations. but me, meiling and leo are still here! i don't get the need for the new vox and keyboardist. argh so pissifying. the more i think about it the more i get fed up about it!

i have the craving to go jamming, i just want it to be the four of us again. i know i made the greatest mistake by forgetting my lyrics at our gashaus gig. but i remember vividly how much fun we had playing at Raffles Institution's grad night. i can never forget how we messed around at the toilets at the grand copthorne, styling our hair, how mas made the amps for us, and when we played, it was just like heaven. but then i made this huge huge huge mistake, that'll never bring us back to how we were before.

maybe i just think too much, maybe you guys don't feel the same way as i feel. i understand you guys already have your own different lives, its like there's a transition in your lives that have caused you to change, going to different schools, the need to adapt to different environments and the need to take up different responsibilities made you guys into totally different people!

i am still who i am and who i was, just the plain old Jach studying in secondary school.
i hope when its time for me to graduate from secondary school and move on to another chapter in my life i will not feel the need to change.

just woke up with a pretty bad headache in the morning, just decided to not go to school and embrace my "black" side, listening to hip hop while lying in bed the whole morning.

now time to get to work! after my shower i just grabbed a bite of the doughnut on the kitchen table, just realised i was sposed to fast (damnit) so.. i guess i'm not fasting today lol.
havent brushed my teeth, but the f&n fizzy orange drink cleaned up my teeth just fine.

off to do the graduation video for prom on november 20th. i wonder what i'm gonna wear. i hope i don't decide to wear a dress tho. lol or else i need a weirdly shaped on to cover up my tattoo. i figure i'll just go with a suit or something then :)

today was a drama filled day..
ms shelia didn't come. neither did ms wong. neither did ms soon.
therefore the whole day was a free day.

firstly, there was conflict between reub and yat. the backrow people ohhh the backrow people. we have had so many conflicts with each other, yet we still sit at the back, TOGETHER. ahahha. and after conflicts, we can still sit next to each other. lol weird bunch we are.

secondly, ms chua came to nab people having camera phones. i admit i was taking photos outside class. but i was doing it for the graduation video! and when ms chua came into the class i swore she wasn't staring at me, so that's my second excuse. i'm clean! i ended up stuffing my phone into the pants i wore inside my skirt, and the others just stuffed phones into their shoes, socks and stuff. what an experience.

thirdly, randy had his PMS outburst again. i understand school is stress blah blah etc. but please don't vent your anger at others again. i swore i wanted to smack his face there and then. when people shun you, maybe its time to do a little self reflection on how you should improve your character. you change for people, not the people change for you. so yep. even if you have family problems and what not, why must you flare up and irritate the whole bunch of us. and quote, "i hate this class". well, then go find another one! crazy ass.

i love my class. its just that we're a mix of so many weird people.
o levels are in two months, school probably ends in maybe another three or more months. why the sudden conflict, we should appreciate our time together while it still lasts. soon we'll be off to our own new lives, who will be the ones who will think back and remember 4/6 class of 2009? i'm sure i'll be one of them.

my fourth day of fasting, i'm starting to get used to going without water and food.
i'll be looking forward to my dinner later :)

did CIP yesterday, tired crap. kept repeating "hi would you like to donate". some people just ignored me and walked away. talk about our gracious society.
but, i thank the people who stopped by to dig into their pockets for loose change :) although i'm forced to do this fund raiser thing, but in the end its still for a good cause i guess.

my mom scolded this old man for accidentally spilling 7-up on her slippers at the 7th month auction dinner thing. gosshh. he's just an old man and it was just an accident. talk about gracious society again. my own mother at that.

and you, please have a bit more originality, i know you often call others as "copying" you, so you think you're so very in style. but just the usage of a term on your loved one, you have to even follow others? i used to have tons of respect for you, but this respect just disappeared into dust. you weren't worth my respect at all.

so what if you're a homophobe. then you can just go along and live in your homophobic world. you have to right to deny people the right to love, or their right to be happy whoever their being with. its this sort of shallow people that prevent our society from moving forward into the new era.
*sigh* shall not bombard you with words, as my facebook fortune cookie of the day says, "strong and bitter words only show weakness".

i don't wish to turn to violence to solve my problems anymore. as you said, "lets treat this like mature adults". talk about being mature and being an adult. maybe your pea sized brain is clouded by the massive volume of fats in your body. maintain your own relationship before coming fourth to challenge mine numbskull.

enough of anger and violence. i haven't uttered a single cuss or swear word today. neither have i had any evil thoughts that i would usually have. i feel so proud of myself.

fasting gives me enlightenment. i feel so enlightened. lol.
those simple things that give you total understanding of your state of mind..

*faraway look*

i guess bee was right, blogs are for people who "Feel the need to express their emotions" :)


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met bee just now and ate kfc! delicious juicy chicken and fizzy pepsi!
i feel so happy now. and i appreciate food much much more.
and as a result, i feel fat. :)

tmr there's CIP! i'm so lazy to go :( 1.45pm at st andrew's cathedral. omg so uncomfortable working near a church.
selling bookmarks. wtf completely not something a normal human like me would do.
after that there's dinner at old house! i will meet so many people i dont know.

and i'm an auntie. my brother and the china woman gave birth to a baby girl. one month old alr i think. i feel so old :( so not ready to take up the challenge.

its me against the world!

vicious cycle. i got myself into a love hexagon! omg so complicating :(

but..


shiok. :D


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i havent ate since i woke up. fasting! hahha

i want to die so bad right now.

fuck this bullshit. all a fucking lie

wow such a new look. blogger finally stopped being an idiot and returned back to normal. took such a long time for it to stop being stupid :)

today's school was fine. was pretty amused by charmian's mian wahid story. haha stupid pakistani guy. helping her with "businesses of life" and all that shit.
physics was pretty okay. we stalled time by talking about poly education and our salary in the future and all that. i'm really not sure about what i want to do with my life :(
self study was boring crap so i just did physics practice papers. in total mrs koh gave eleven sets from different secondary schools omg.

after school, went home and out to meet bee. went all the way to cine just to realise we're not gonna watch movie lol. ate kfc and couldn't finish. i think now the fries and a quarter of a banditio is still inside her bag.
shopped around, went to heeren and then to orchard centre. nice place, and i made a new friend! lol a tattoist at primitive ink. him name is XIAO P. but he's not small at all. big chunky guy with chubby handshake. bahahaaa. but nice art. i wanna get inked so soon :( everything revolves around money money money!

ended the date at some random void deck :) we talked for hours. but if you still think about her. i think you should let her know. i alr put so much into this relationship i don't really care if i get hurt. now i realise its kinda foolish to want so many things out of our relationship. you still have so many other people to choose from, one day you'll eventually get sick of me. as you said, you want your fair share of flirting and relationships. all that stuff. maybe someday you'll just leave me. i'll never know.

but till then, i've no qualms about giving my all into this relationship.

*sigh* emo moment. i think i'm going to sleep now :)
good luck to all those starting the fasting month tmr :)

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damn i spend like the hour watching Miami Ink and LA Ink :( can't wait to get somemore ink damnit

I FAILED ENGLISH
:( i failed my english prep exams by a teeny bit. but i guess i'll be able to buck up and work harder.
bee is off for her cold storage job interview :) wish her lotsa luck!

jamming this weekend, i'm so excited :D but art submissions are on monday, i'm still left with two boards and a little bit of my canvas left undone, i hope i can finish them soon.
i spend like 2 hours plus doing my new blogskin and stuff, now its time to take a nice shower and study study study!

life is good and i'm happy with my life right now :)


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its been kinda 3 hours and i havent started on my art work yet lol :)
i'm eating prunes and baby got the job~ woots good for her. hopefully she doesn't get lazy lol

TODAY IS MIRACLE DAY!
190109 - 190809
seven months~

its been a heck of a time,
a ball of fun
filled with everything i ever wanted
everything i wanted to feel

aaaanddd
I LOVE YOU! wheeeeehooooooaaaaaahhhhhhhuuuuuuuu



:)

ohohoh and i got back my o level results for chinese today.
i got a b3 for my paper and a distinction for my oral! *gasspsss*
i did it! i passed my freaking o level chinese :) but i want to retake and try getting an A1!!
i'm so motivated to study right now :)

someone's starting to fast this saturday :) don't worry i'll be there to suffer with you!
although we quarrel and sometimes i get pissed off and say rubbish, i never mean it, and i really love you :)

baby it's fact, our love is true :)

either blogger has a problem or i have a problem with blogger. its screwing up.

here i am
once again

i don't want to fail my o levels
i don't want to drop to N(a)
i don't want to retake my o levels
i don't want to retain

i want to G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E-W-I-T-H-F-L-Y-I-N-G-C-O-L-O-U-R-S.
therefore, (dot dot dot)

revision starts from TODAY.

i have SIX DAYS TO COMPLETE MY ART
i have 70+ DAYS TO O LEVEL

I AM FAILING MY SUBJECTS
I AM GOING TO DIE


bye computer i'll miss you :(
bye movies i'll miss you :(
bye slacking i'll miss you :(


BUT MY NEW LIFE STARTS IN THREE MONTHS.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

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life sucks.

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i miss you come home soon. :(

:)

my heart aches with every second of your absence.