waaaaah. today was the first day of school. i couldn't really sleep the night before tho. woke up at 2.44 after dreaming that me and bee went to do magic at walmart all the way in the us. had trouble falling asleep thereafter.

i felt like my eyeballs were gonna pop when i woke up in the morning.

my uniform wasn't outside, i had to go and take it from the cupboard...
my dog started barking.. i had to get him out of the cage...
i had to wash up etc... i had to make sure i brought all my stuff.. i had to fill my bottle.. i had to take money from my dad... i had to wear my skirt..
no socks on my shoes.. i had to take my socks from the cupboard.. i had to put the tongue in my shoes... i had to wear my socks... wear my shoes.. open the door... check myself in the mirror.. open the door... see if it was too early to go out... go out... lock the door... put my keys in my bag...

you get the drift.

lessons were draggyyyy~ but i was happy to be in sch with the backrow peeps.
had a few laughs here and there. had health check. seems to have someth wrong with my left eye.
o level mother tongue oral's this friday.. got to read some chinese newspapers cause i read chinese like how an angmoh reads chinese.. and i've got to work on my conversation.

art... need to plan my final layout and stuff.. and actually go for art class sometime LOL.


aaand.. i'm missing my beautiful lady so much...

what a draggy day..........................................................
i realise its only 3.30. so damn early. myyyy goodness.



lol this is fucking funny

formal day today~
ate yummy yummy qiji and went to watch "i love you man" at tamp mall.
bee sees people she knows EVERYWHEREEE. blaah.
went to kovan to find lingling after that, talked and caught up with times :)
always nice to have a chat with mx fel and lingling. met this other girl, if i'm not wrong her name was mandy or smth like that.
played a little pool, then off to take 81 back with beebee.

i love you velly velly much :)



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ohoh and michael jackson passed away. there was this youtube video -
and this comment from some random guy -
well since he was made of plastic , they should recycle him into building blocks so the kids can play with him for once lmao



LOL fuck that made me laugh so hard. i think he had too much surgery.
others should stop thinking they're so close to MJ and being sad about his death.

whatever happened to the sympathy they shouldve gave to freddie mercury? just cause he was gay he gets so much bullshit. and stupid childmolester plastic face MJ gets so much love.
bullshit

LOL i just found my old blog. it seems that some random porn advertisement posted itself on my old blog hehhehhehh.

had lotsa fun today, prawning at townpark and sending it to the nearby restaurant to cook as cereal prawns :D yummmm.
had a lesson on how to catch prawns by this random lady, she was nice :D
i rmb how the wormy bit bee and how i killed all the worms in the container by chopping.
and i got angry cause no prawns wanted to be caught by us.
and my bloody fingers from cutting the HAAM. cockle thingy.

can't wait for tmr. fun fun fun. :)


me love you dahleng~

i dont wanna go to school D:
i got cough and my eyes hurt, i'm vulnerable to bird flu and swine flu so watch out, home quarantine me for about.. 6 weeks please.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0a6vS-V_5r4
i like the piggy back :D

new shelving from ikea woots


pictures found online ah. its like this when empty.

imagine it with the box box as a door, i have some red doors and black doors inside some of the storage squares.
i have some red drawers and black drawers to put into some storage squares too.
and some red transparent-like storage boxes like the blue and green ones to put inside some storage squares
and some storage squares will be empty.

188cm x 188cm.


CHIO NOT. woooooots




i really really love you. thats why it hurt so much. now i get it.
i cry like a baby!

so numb.
i cant feel with a numb heart.

the way your eyes twinkle when you smile
the sound of your laugh
the way you exclaim and get excited at things
the way you say qiji
the way you say dapao
the "mmm" face you make
the way you ruffle my hair
the way you hook your arm around mine
the way you hold my hand
the way you put your hand on your forehead to cover it with your hair
the way you sneeze
the way you run like an excited kid
the way you choose clothes for me
the way you get excited over pens
the way you yawn like a walrus
the feeling of your head on my shoulder
the feeling of hugging you
the feeling when you kiss me
the feeling when i know you care about me
the feeling when you kiss me
the feeling when you tell me you love me

i'll be the one to massage your temples when you get a headache
i'll be the one to massage your stomach when you get a stomach ache
i'll be the one to massage your feet when you're tired
i'll be the one to crack your knuckles when you need it
i'll be the one to play silly games for you
i'll be the one who'll cook for you
i'll be the one to wash your hair
i'll be the one to comb your hair
i'll be the one to stroke your hair when you sleep
i'll be the one to wipe your tears away when you cry
i'll be the one to take care of you when youre sick
i'll be the one to get anything for you when you need it

I want you to be the one i lie next to everyday in bed
I want you to be the one who cares the most about me
I want you to be the one who takes care of me
I want you to be the one who makes me smile
I want you to be the one who brightens up my day
I want you to be the one i live my everyday for
I want you to be the one i work hard to achieve for
I want you to be the one who strokes my hair
I want you to be the one who i hug to sleep
I want you to be the one i can always talk to
I want you to be the one i can depend on
I want you to be the one i can cry on

cause you're the one for me, i had the time of my life when i'm with you.

i dont care what it takes, all that matters is you with me and me with you.
when i'm with you i forget everything else. i dont care about anyone else cause you mean the most to me. i need you so much.

i'm sorry i was angry. i'm sorry i walked away and didn't turn back. i'm sorry i wasn't there to give you my shoulder to cry on today. i'm sorry. i really am.

please come back to me. i'm begging you.
i can never love the same way without you.



i love you and i'll always do. please take me back?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpmILPAcRQo

watch it!

i had the time of my life, and i owe it all to you :D

had looootsa fun with bee today and the tinys :)
played playdoh with nufayl, then went to playground, then to buy cookie stuff :)
made cookies with nufayl!
then we all fell asleep after mac and cheese and a little bit of wolverine on the teevee :)

went out with bee after that :)
giant and ikea once again heh :)
my wonderful idea with candles and it turned out damn nice :)

woots five months!

the more days go by, the more i fall in love with you :)



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i just witnessed a couple of 3 years breaking up.
i realise how important trust is in a relationship now,
and i'm confident to say i trust you a 100% :)

i hope you never ever misuse my trust for you :)

happy 5th month :)

hehheh :)
i learnt bee's smile! we had to take seperate photos cause there was only the two of us there lol.

met bee today~ went to play pool and worked my magic at GIANT and IKEA.
talked about our lives and the circle of shit! at first i wasn't in the circle of shit, but then i was introduced into the circle of shit lol.
nvm i don't mind, as long as i'm with bee now :)
brick game, shirts, fbt, candles, shot glasses, finger puppets aaaand a mousey :)

the brick game so super cool! its red and transparent and the music confirm damn nice.

i love it when you're right next to me, like we're so at ease with each other's company :)
we can just sit by the kerb waiting for the bus and talk and talk and talk talk talk. i just love that kinda chemistry :)
and we say the same things at the same time :) so couply~ i love that too heh :)

PLUS. i knew that you were wearing skinnies and I WORE SKINNIES TOO. couply~ woooots!

i'm so in love~ :)

another smiley smiley post cause i'm happy! :)



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blah. can't sleep :(
its just my mom, don't care about what she says, she's always like that.

isn't it just about you and me? why bother about the others? isn't me loving you all that matters?


if i lay here, if i just lay here
would you lie with me, and just forget the world?








:(

superduper fun time with bee yesterday and today :)

went to the zoo~ omg i love the polar bear and elephantsss :)
crazy noisy howling monkeys and we fed the elephant! rough rough dry trunk sucking bananas and carrots from our hands :)
and and and we fed the goats! violent bunch of hungry things. one stupid brown one kept on head butting the small ones :( and there was one old ahpek goat :)
took the boat! super duper cool, damn nice scenery around the macritchie resevoir area :)
spent the whole day at the zoo from 10 plus until 5 i think.

then off to work some magic *wink wink* then back home to settle down in the room :)
sucessfully took over the room! enjoyed the night very much~
took out the pig's braids and even washed her hair for her! *scratches*
altho a pig slept so early and left me so bored, so nice to have you in my arms :) i know you like it when you fall asleep then you wake up with me right by your side :)

spent more than 36 hours with beebee! i just love spending time with the adorable one :)

off back home for baby this afternoon, then sent her for training :) then after that to kambeng soup! wooots~ now the adorable one is at home resting :)

i hope you had a wonderful birthday with me heh :) i had lotsa lotsa fun! aaaaaaaaand most of all, i love you very very much :)

many smilies in this post cause i'm happy! :)

*floats*

carmen's smile reminds me vividly about someone i know very well :))))))))

MAYBE BEE BEE IS COMING HOME TOMORROW YAY~
if not she'll still come back in the end right. lol~
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omg i so fucking can't wait!


i miss youuuuuuu alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot!

k now food is back, ITS TIME FOR ME TO EAT. MUAHAHAHA

feel my warm breath down the nape of your neck, when i plant small kisses on your smooth shoulders. how i nibble your earlobes and gently lick the side of your delicate neck.
you feel a chill down your side, and you squirm slightly, but i hug you tight.
how my lips meet yours, and i trace the tip of my tongue along your bottom lip, watching how your breath starts to get shorter and faster...

arrghhh i miss you bee. D:

fever came back last night at about 3am plus. i hope its not fking dengue or what shit cause i have body aches. woke up today at 5pm.
i'm becoming nocturnal ah. sleep when the sun comes up, awake when the sun goes down.

blah. lack of motivation. i'm just floating around like a piece of seaweed.
not even a text message. haaaizz.



*floats around*

so what if i'm young.
ugh

my darling is in bali, time for me to continue with my school work and art stuff.
love is a magical thing, it brings two people so close together in an instant. no matter how strong the relationship, it can be greatly affected by matters of the heart.
i must remind myself not to do things on the impulse, not to say certain sensitive thing when i'm angry, and never ever to shoot my mouth off.
i want this relationship to last, i don't want my changes to be of no avail, i want to earn the trust of a girl, and really be there for her whenever she needs me, not to have a girl to play with just when i need someone to hold.
i better not think so much and take things in my stride :)
i really don't want to be caught in a sticky situation anymore, or to quarrel until the point of no return, of no salvation.
love will prevail!

yesterday morning went out to play bball with bee, eunice zena and ger. had a great time :)
stuff happened, better not talk about it blah.

went back home to bathe then out again to meet meiling and kimfang at bugis then leo and eugene at bukit timah, fun and games :)
but one thing was on my mind the whole time... haiz issues issues.
drunk and talked rubbish for a while.
when i finally reached home i nearly just dropped dead. fell asleep inside the train all the way from boon lay back to pasir ris. but the night was good :)

nice to know eugene, nice to know kimfang, nice to hang out with ml and leo again :)

you never know how happy i was to receive your text in the morning :)

and beebee is flying to bali tmr morning. time to bury my head in my work while she enjoys herself with the sun sand and sea.
i'll never let her go! no one can take her away from me cause she's mine! bound by my love. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR.

we go into shops and work our magic :D $50++!

i'll never forget the times we shared :) you're alrd such a big part of my life. i'll never ever cheat on you no matter if i'm drunk or what. i really really do love you. YOU and only YOU!
i'll miss you when you're in bali. but i know you'll enjoy yourself :) i have my work to distract me from missing you too much, and when you get back we can hang out :D

angry at me for WHAT! don't like me to stay out then say. don't up to you up to you blah blah.
hate that SHIT.

you asked me to go away and FUCK OFF RIGHT.

then thats what i'll do.

you make me happy whether you know it or not
we should be happy that's what i said from the start
i am so happy knowing you are the one
that i want for the rest of my days
for the rest of my days
your all of my days

your lookin so cool your lookin so fly
i cant deny that when im staring
you down right dead in the eye
i wanna try to be the person you want
the person you need
its hard to conceive
that somebody like you could be with
someone like me

im happy knowing that you are mine
the grass is greener on the other si-ide
the more i think the more i wish
that we could lay here for hours and justa reminisce
uhh ooo ooo

your lookin so fresh
its catching my eye
why oh why did i not see this before
the girl i adore was right in front of me
and now ill take a step back and look in your eye
and ask why it took so long to see
were meant to be

im happy knowing that you are mine
the grass is greener on the other si-ide
the more i think the more i wish
that we could lay here for hours and justa reminisce

on the good, the bad, the ugly
the smiles ,the laughs, the funny,
or all the things we put each other through
its for you for you for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

you make me happy whether you know it or not
we should be happy thats what i said from the start
i am so happy knowing you are the one
that i want for the rest of my days
for the rest of my days
your all of my days

im happy knowing that you are mine
the grass is greener on the other si-ide
the more i think the more i wish
that we could lay here for hours and justa reminisce

happy - nevershoutnever!


ahhh i like this song~

more alone than ever.
phone confiscated. broke.