zemperfi

2010-03-12T09:30:00.000-08:00

hello. its been long since i've blogged. so long not being able to use the computer, now i see how some people have grown up and shit.

so yup. dumdeedumdumdum *twiddles thumbs*
thats all for today i guess. lmfao

2010-02-12T22:25:00.000-08:00

hello earthlings!
waiting for reunion dinner now. i'm not bothering to help lol.
i guess this year is a very different one for me. finally understanding the hardship of earning money.. whenever i wanna buy stuff i contemplate, cos using the money is like chopping off a little bit of me lol. the long hours i spent to earn so much money...
everytime i hand money to cashiers, a little part of me dies inside... lmao drama much.

just a quick update.. i'm in communications and media management at temasek poly, i'm working at earle's swensons at t3 (and loving the job and the people there), i'm still attached to zena yong, two months and counting (lmao) and thats about everything thats going on in my life. i'm getting by just fine..

not particularly psyched about chinese new year, i'm the youngest of this tier of relatives so the others are like married with kids. my cousins are like old people. how to talk like that?! nothing at all to relate to.. since young there was alr a communication breakdown. so blaaaaah nothing to look forward to. except the ang pow money lmao.

alright thats all i guess. life goes on, if the old doesnt go, the new wont come.

i love you baby :)

2010-01-31T10:24:00.000-08:00

i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
i'm confused, i'm trying my hardest to forget you. you're happy with him, you said you love him.
i have to move on and let go of that tiny thread of hope i have.
i'm with her now, i need to love her. she loves me so much, i'm such a jerk to have let her down. you've warned me before about this, now its coming true.

i'm never the picture perfect person you thought i was.
i'm sorry to do this to you.
and i've no idea what you see in me,, i'm totally not worth the time.

i just wish i'll wake up tmr and everything will fall into place.

2010-01-13T19:54:00.000-08:00

long time no blog!
lets see what happened so far.. i took my results and i got L1R5-16 and L1R4-13 :)
minus two points from cca and i have 11 :)
communication and media management, hope it'll be quite fun ah. i'm spamming my first few choices with courses from temasek poly, just cause its near and i'm lazy to travel:)

been working, quite fun now since i'm closer with my collegues, its been pretty fun! i'll be going into fountain to prepare all the ice cream and stuff soon. just need to memorize all the recipes. nice experience what! get money somemore.

i love zena :)
i feel like eating fried mars bars leh.
i like to eat both :)
zena is bloody smart
she got 8distinctions
and 8 points
after minus cca points is 6
she can go anywhere she want
but papa want her go mjc
bahahahh
:)

2010-01-02T04:31:00.000-08:00

new year's eve with thiru, jaren, kla, patrick and z at marina square, new years day in a hotel room in geylang HAHAHAA. memorable shit. great start to 2010 with baby :)

WOOOOTS
2010 ftw!

2009-12-26T02:44:00.000-08:00

HELLO ALL.

blogging at macdonald's at T3. my second home.

i got dragged up at 7am in the morning to take care of baby jamie and the puppies:) my house has nearly become a childcare centre. but i love it!

today i went to work! i had fun slacking. i love my job. its all about good service and responsibility and discipline and shit. th kind of stuff i'm interested in.
LOVE IT. exactly what i've always wanted to do.

i made many friends today, and i'm happy. i talked to the kitchen crew and the dishwasher auntie. I LOVE IT OMG.

but there's definitely something i love more than my dog, and its ZENA YONG SIHUI!

OMG LIFE IS SO GOOD. I LOVE MY LIFE! MERRY CHRISTMAS HAHAHAHAHAH
*crazy happy face*

2009-12-22T20:50:00.000-08:00

LIFE IS DAMN BLOODY GOOD
jojo gave birth to three puppies in the morning:)
stripey is the first one, moomoo and girlgirl :)
soooo cuteeeeeeee.

work today yay

2009-12-20T02:32:00.000-08:00

hi. long time since i've updated. my computer went boomz one day and therefore i've been deprived of my online time. sista was very nice to lemme use her lappy.
i should get a lappy tooooo omg. finally my own laptop. *hopes*
:) these few days have been good, lunch with my dear almost everyday, with the exception of today cos i'm sick.
tmr is sentosa with ling and dear :) then off to work at 7.

life is good, carefree, fun and enjoyable. particularly happy cos i've my dear by my side.
and i've moved into my new room wahahaha. i've conquered it finally :D

therefore i'm a happy boy :) just a slight update, no one reads my blog much anyways.

"i yearn for the day that you're the one i wake up to see lying next to me"

2009-12-09T22:53:00.000-08:00

omg stupid banglah stole my powerpoint! wth. i shall move to macdonald's or somewhere else to look for a powerpoint. wth sia talk about being polite. asswipe _l_

hello i'm blogging for the sake of THE GREAT ZENA YONG. who is working in transit's perfume and cosmetics :) looking all lady-like with makeup on :) pretty girl pretty girl pretty girl pretty girl :)

three more hours! i'm so proud of myself, that i have so much patience. but today is easier cos i've her laptop lol. i think the security guard will catch me! the weird person who stands at the same place for hours on end looking at the transit area lol.

these few days have been really fun :) and i love spending time with you~ sunday is sentosa with ling! woooots. exercise exercise.

see i do much for you zena yong! you must reward me with something nice :)
i shall move to mac now cos i'm angry the stupid angmoh sitting at the corner refuses to move away for me to use the powerpoint GRRRRR.

2009-12-06T08:05:00.000-08:00

HELLO. back from china.
it was a blaaast. fucking cold temperatures, but it made me realise how real kinship is. and friendship! amongst the neighbours and etc.
also, its much more relaxed over there compared to here, this hectic daily life we go through everyday. and i got a godma and godbro :D

jamie is safely back in singapore!

glad to be back and glad to have spent the night with z :)
pictures up on facebook~

with your hand in mine, we'll take it slow
we'll share our past, beneath the moonlight glow
my feelings for you, are not just for show
just trust me and places we will go :)

2009-11-28T10:43:00.001-08:00

bye singapore! :D

i'll be missing you.. i can't get enough of you :)
*hugs*

2009-11-23T00:38:00.000-08:00

I'm falling in love
But its falling apart
I need to find my way back to the start
When we were in love
Things were better than they are
Let me back into...
Into your arms.
Into your arms.

...

into your arms - the maine

2009-11-22T05:56:00.001-08:00

once i get the $95 combined with the $10 i have left..
i can do two different sets of things...

- get my two lip piercings ( $38 )
- get two 3kg dumbbells ($40?)
left with $27 to do whatever the fuck i want

or i can just blow it on girls lol

2009-11-21T08:02:00.001-08:00

its pointless.
FUCK OFFFFFFFFFF

i'm better off being alone!

2009-11-21T07:15:00.000-08:00

prom was a blast lol. i saw people dance like they never danced before... it was an eye opener lol knowing such alter egos existed in some of us.

damn i'm gonna miss this batch of people, not to mention everyone else that had a part in my secondary school life experience.

going into details would take about an hour to write so i shan't bother lol. pictures all up in facebook.. a night to remember.

so now that grad night is over, its time to get my hair dyed, go for my holiday, get back, get a job enjoy my time and its school all over again :)

bee seems very partial towards me. like super cold. maybe it cause i've neglected her for the past few days with the events that has been happening?

she's the only one i've got my eyes on

2009-11-18T07:10:00.000-08:00

HAPPY TEN MONTHS!!

2009-11-16T00:44:00.000-08:00

wakakaka went to leo's birthday chalet on friday..
funny shit happened, gene face planted on the door..
everyone puked, some puked outside some puked on the bed, some puked in dustbins some in the toilet and i puke on the wall :DDDD

leo unfortunately toh-ed after drinking that cup of pure evil and slept soundly throughout it all lol
had no idea who came and who left

thanks bee for taking care of me when i puked and shit

and who the hell is that guy in the white singlet and black cap that was flirting with khai?!? whats his name aseph assef dunno what fuck

THREE brothers who TOH-ED TOGETHER
JAKE JADE JACH

2009-11-11T08:47:00.000-08:00

so many things i wanna do, yet i dont know where to start.

i just want to hold you in my arms and watch the clouds pass by.
slow down and give me some of your time, will you?

2009-11-07T05:14:00.000-08:00

if love was just as simple as 1,2,3,
so happy and carefree we would be,
without the sorrow and the pain,
it'll be like running free in the rain,
feeling the raindrops pelt on my skin,
being with you would be just like a dream.

- Jach 07Nov09 -

you don't know how much i wish i could get to know your family and all that.. and spend everyday with you..
you don't even know what goes through my mind..

god knows if you'll ever read this.

everytime we fight my heart dies a little, bit by bit until there's really nothing to love with.

forever 190109

2009-11-06T05:35:00.000-08:00

HELLOHELLO.
omg so fast four years of education WOOOOSH over.
o levels ending soon! but it alr feels like HOLIDAAAY.

k today bee was so nice to come fetch me from school. so we went home to lie down and turn on air con and watch tv. until my mom come back and make noise we went to white sands to eat. yummy yum yum.

then met sheepy and reub and play arcade~ then bee had to go to work.

tmr meeting the guys to go get prom stuff..... hopefully my mother will be so kind to give me money, or else i buy what shit?!?!

okay i'm in a damn good mood! i shall go play habbo now~

btw lit was rubbish. KERSHAW WAS NOT MEMORABLE AND IMPORTANT AT ALL! and PHILIP HILL WAS THE ONE WHO WENT TO EAT WITH DR SCOTT. NOT KERSHAW.

so therefore (dot dot dot)
i'm screwed. :)

THREE MORE PAPERS.
and bee bee i love you you asswipe, hell of a pretty girl :)

2009-10-31T10:14:00.000-07:00

hey ho and a merry oh!

fought fought fought. but now we're alright :)

went to meiling's birthday bbq! bought her a domo bag :) glad she likes it alot.
had a ton of fun! me and leo trying to save a fire while fel and ling cooking sausages lol. epic. its called bonding!
it rained throughout the night.. cried a lot, but oh well :)

blog more nxt time! time to go sleep, tmr need to do art omg chiongxzxzxz.

i love you bee!!

2009-10-28T05:39:00.000-07:00

Now would you leave me if you're father found out about us?
Do you believe me when I tell you, you the one I'm loving?
Are you mad 'cause I'm asking you 21 questions?
Are you my soul mate? 'Cause if so, girl you a blessing
Do you trust me enough, to tell me your dreams?
I'm staring at ya' trying to figure how you got in them jeans
If I was down would you say things to make me smile?
I treat you how you want to be treated just teach me how
If I was with some other chick and someone happened to see?
And when you asked me about it I said it wasn't me
Would you believe me? Or up and leave me?
How deep is our bond if that's all it takes for you to be gone?
And always remember girl we make mistakes, to make it up I do whatever it take
I love you like a fat kid love cake
You know my style I say anything to make you smile

2009-10-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

went to meet bee and simphoni for expo sale yesterday:) some small IT fair or something.
then simphoni went and me and bee had no idea where to go!

so we decided to look for Chuachua at bugis :) went to iluma and played the cool american arcade upstairs. hummer :) bee was like "omgomgomg i'm going to puke" lol. adorable.
stared at some balloons disappearing in the sky, while waiting for fel's bus to arrive.

guess who miraculously appeared? SHAAKIRAH. omg scare the shit out of me. i just pretend i don't know anyone! wahahahahaa.

then fel went to work, heard sad news that skf's grandma passed away :(
cheer up kimfang!

then me and bee went to east coast. but we stopped at the wrong place so we walked for about an hour to reach the food place. couple bonding lol. we ran and walked and hop and whatever. :)
yummy seafood! kailan and stingray and chicken wings~ and coke then i ate a coconut!! :D
wonderful meal :) then we walked to find the bus stop tgt :)
i love friday!

then today, woke up early in the morning to go and pray... (forced)
then went to cut my hair, and off to Putien at TM to celebrate mudder's birthday. the food was okok la. but exp like hell. I PREFER EAST COAST! :DDD

then me and papa came up with a evil plan to buy sushi WAHAHA. so we went to fairprice and bought milk, sushi and hamhamham :) yummy. then vroom vroom back.

now i'm awaiting my cheesecake to get back home, and bee is celebrating Shaakirah's birthday at some sheesha place i think.

k i'm stinky and sticky i think i should bathe. bathe alr, play mafia wars then do art and do math!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAAKIRAH AND MY MUDDER!

2009-10-22T00:11:00.001-07:00

today's practical was good!
goodbye goodbye goodbye

2009-10-21T05:36:00.000-07:00

racism.

i overheard some people talking about Singapore Idol, and this girl, lets just say A, is a malay girl, and she likes contestant A who is chinese. and she tells girl B who is also malay the she wants to support contestantA. but girlB says "why, support melayu la"

i don't like racism. i have friends that are of other races!

i don't like any form of discrimination either. yeah i admit i've called a specific guy "gay" just cause he's like a sissy but his character is shit, but i realise its kinda wrong as well. to associate gay with a bad character.

hopefully discrimination against homosexuals will stop, just like how racism has died down since the olden times. now usage of "niggas" and other slang is no longer offensive, as even african americans use it on themselves.
hopefully one day people will not use "gay" or "faggot" or "lesbo" as offensive words.

omg the constant reading of "To Kill A MockingBird" is affecting me personally :DDDDDDDD

2009-10-20T03:00:00.000-07:00

thankyou aaaaall who wished me happybirthday! :)

thankyou reub for waking me up in the morning. "eh come down awhile i got smth to show you"
LOL classic lie. THANKYOU BRO! <3 :D

thankyou CHUAMEILING for coming down to meet me :) thanks SKF for coming down and adding to the fun :) thanks LEO for coming down :) and thanks to i-forgot-her-name also lol.

birthday~
on sunday went to eat crab and some zichar from th stall at central with family :)

monday
went down and slacked with reub in th morning :) thanks bro.
bee got angry at me! but i managed to use my charm to turn her around :)
girls plus shopping equals a very happy girl, so therefore we went to orchard~
baby wore the rainbowish skirt that i like :) but her shirt was abit off. so therefore i was so wonderful to buy her a mango tank top! black. PLUS ITS XS. OMG HOT lol

met meiling at bugis :) then skf and we went to haji lane for sheeeshaaaa.
shiok balls but i nearly blacked out when i stood up. had no idea why but i felt like fainting. thereafter i got high so its a different story hahaha.
had this forfeit thingy, to french kiss :) i enjoyed it, and bet the others enjoy it too lol :)
leo and the -i-forgot-her-name came down thereafter and had to kiss on the cheek. hahahahaah

had fun~ thanks everyone for coming down :)

most of all, thank you darling :) ninemonths!

2009-10-16T23:21:00.001-07:00

"all the single ladies, now put your hands up"

*WAVES WILDLY*

shitballs i'm single again. :(

i love her so much, yet she let me go.
"i don't want to be your gf anymore"
yeayeayeayeayeay
blarhglbarhblahrblarhg

SUCK BALLS SUCK BALLS

2009-10-16T03:49:00.000-07:00

for fuck's sake.
you dont even know what i like and weve been living together since the day i was born.
dont tell me we're gonna celebrate shit when you dont even know what i like.
going out to eat? i dont even like the stuff you like to eat.

i'm feeling so down now like i'm sinking into the depths of a bottomless sea.
i wanna talk to you bee. but you just ask me fuck off.
you're the only person i can talk to.
then fuck off i will.

2009-10-15T01:30:00.000-07:00

hello all/ no one.
damn its been a long time since i blogged. six days! magnificent. i usually blog things immediately after they happen, but i guess i've changed!

alright so let me recall the things that have happened these few days.
actually honestly i dont rmb. lol.
all i remember is that i've not been in school since tuesday. i went for monday but decided to stay at home to mug on tues.

but yesterday i took a nice break, and went to snow city and science center with beebee :)
met her early in the morning to have some macgoodness breakfast, then we were off to jurong wooooooooots. my second home. went to chinese garden, and i saw the places i missed :)
then off to science centre! it was cool, there were new stuff like the sound exhibition and yadah yadah. its to attract people since its remained the same since dunno how many years ago. and the ticket prices have dropped drastically lol.

and the electric chair freaked me out :( i'm not a wimp! who wouldnt be afraid of electricity.
saw the fountain that me leo and hj played the last time we went there.. memories man.

went to snow city! i thought it would be fun so i was excited. i was trying to hide it shhh. lol
okay la it was kinda fun going down the slope. cameras not allowed inside the place, damnit they're just trying to earn money. yup so no pictures of us in snow city.
bee tumbled down the slope once so after that i was too freaked out and afraid she would get hurt so i decided to stop lol. and we got outta there. the pictures were too ridiculously overpriced and unglam so no pictures!

went back to science centre to check out the body exhibition. and the body works exhibition is coming soon! omg i wanna go see that one :) after eating my happy meal at macs, we decided to walk to the mrt.
which the closest was jurong east :) poor jurong entertainment centre was like a dead place. nothing was inside, but the building was still there. memories... outside long john silvers, the bubble tea place, the library, the emergency exit where so many memories were shared. blaaaaaah. on our way there there was a fire, the kaypoh girl wanted to see so we had to walk all the way there and back. lol.

after science centre went to far east plaza, and then to bugis street. bee got the hot hot hothot skirt i like girls to wear :) long but sexaaaayeee. and she got her womanly bag hahahaah. :) i likeeeee. mmmm. hahahaha.

then slowly on the train back home.. something happened! i was playing with her ring then i dropped it. lol idiotic i KNOW. so i was looking at the floor and below seats to find it. it wuz like i was looking under people's skirts lol. then i found it! after this guy left his seat and i sat down and looked under it, the ring was there! YAY. then this angmoh woman talk to me. hahahahahaah~ i was so happy i found it i kept trying to contain my smile :)

then back home! :) nice nice nice nice day.

thank you bee bee for celebrating my birthday in advance many many days ago too :)

tmr is cutting cake day, but i'm not even excited! blah. i've been asking for a electric guitar since i was like dunno how many years old, and its never arrived. makes me think of how much my family members even know me. they know nuts! sucks.
and i know no one will rmb my birthday.

its just another day...

2009-10-09T20:06:00.001-07:00

shutup and study.

"you'll never amount to anything if you continue being lazy" *smack on the head*

i want to do the things i love.
but an invisible force is pushing me down,

i used to do everything with you.
now you're gone, i don't know how to go about doing things alone anymore.

2009-10-08T00:30:00.000-07:00

sibeh sian. my mothers keeps nagging. like as if she knows any shit.

argh shut up shut up SHUTUPPPPP

L1R4 of 16.

2009-10-05T05:34:00.000-07:00

wtf. when did muaythai become a fucking trend.

now all the idiotic twits are going "omg that guy's so hot i wanna join muaythai"
wtf you join muaythai just to see guys?

go and screw yourself sia. fuckers

2009-10-05T00:20:00.000-07:00

hello all~
yst went to meet bee to go bugis and walk arnd~ then met meiling and ferly to walk arnd~ and go to golden mile.

MAJOR PORK ISSUE.
next~

i got 73/100 for my combined humans. (yay!!!)
and sucky results for math, at least i passed. so means more work for my math.
and okok results for chinese, mostly lost in my essay. so therefore i need to do better to get my A1.
and physics! 62. pretty good compared to my constant failing. so i need to buck up :)

work hard work hard.
food now woots. so hungry

2009-10-03T22:42:00.000-07:00

friday - went meet up with the bros, went jamming!~ met jaz. (is that her name) lol.
thank you bee bee for taking the effort to stay for so long with me :) i love you many many :)
it was fun hanging out with bros after so long. and MX, and meeting meiling's friends. esp the gay dude. funny ah he! :)

sat - stoned at home cos i woke up at about 5pm and it was so dark. sposed to be mooncake festival but whaaaaatever la. lol

sun - waiting to eat and dunno do what then go to meet bee~

tmr there's sch :(

2009-10-01T21:23:00.000-07:00

i wonder after my o's and secondary school life what would i be doing.
i just finished my prelims today and i'm just sitting aimlessly not knowing what to do.

free? will i miss my classmates and that familiar view from my seat at the back?
will i miss classes and the fun we have during recess, the food at the canteen?

will i change and become someone who desperately tries to be part of the "cool" people?
will i become someone i don't want to?

so afraid, so afraid.

2009-10-01T06:37:00.000-07:00

hello all / nobody~
went out early in th morning today, for photography trip with the guys.
donn didn't go, pangseh kia. told norv his mom dont allow, told me he was sick!

and norv was still sleeping at the time we was sposed to meet.
k nvm moving on, went to city hall and esplanade then to clark quay to take pictures~
all on facebook~ and i stole a sign that says " emergency access point"

went to ehub and left norv and his friend, wilson i think. the guy i see every morning waiting for his gf.
watched the guys play battle gear. tried once. hard like hell. thn went to meet bee to eat mee soto :)
then back home.

tmr physics then maybe going to meet up with my brothaaaaas :)

2009-09-30T08:50:00.001-07:00

hello all / nobody
thing is, she didn't delete the photos! she is a big big cheating liar. *bites finger*

went home early today! paper ended so early. slacked awhile with the guys at the canteen, with mee soto (yummy) went home after they all left for their second paper...

exercised like a mad pig :) sit ups lunges squats bench press incline pushup blah blah blah. need to stop being fat laaaaa.

met bee after her ridiculously long work, then went to eat qiji (pohpiah yum yum) then off to ehub to get her nebo card and arcade card and etc etc.
nice finally spending time with you :) and hugging you and kissing you etc etc etc.. :)

tmr outing with the guys! not the usual guys but + norvan and donn the wall. photography early in the morning, hopefully nice pics turn out tmr.

byebye all~

2009-09-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

hello all/nobody~

monday was math paper2 and mt. nth much. so blah. me and bee went out. harbourfront if i rmb correctly. henderson waves. but wdv she deleted all the photos anw.

i just rmb sleeping very late. yeah thaaats about it.

today~ couldn't wake up (duh) so went for lit paper two. the little part i studied came out! weeeeets :) the one about humour. so i just wrote furiously. it was freezing. my legs were like icecubes. so yeah, after that home. then fight fight blah blah. changed went out to meet sheep and reub.

went to tamp and walked arnd and giant and played ball and stuff. :) got a small cute rugby ball. for you know who. so yeah here i am.
i'm hungry now. time to go eat waaazaaaa. tmr is chemistry, ending at nine fifteen. but who cares. thurs no paper. fri is phys and art.

and fri is date with leo hj and lingling! :) looking forward to that.

byebye diary. you're the only one who will listen to me now.
*floats*

2009-09-26T03:26:00.001-07:00

stop making me try things i don't want to.
dont like me the way i am, then go to hell.
sooner or later i'm gonna leave anyway.

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stop comparing me to my sister. i'm not her she's not me. you don't love me the way i am fuck off. you want to keep insulting me then go ahead

way past my breaking point

2009-09-26T03:26:00.000-07:00

stop making me try things i don't want to.
dont like me the way i am, then go to hell.
sooner or later i'm gonna leave anyway.

2009-09-25T09:12:00.001-07:00

yay~ same shirts! its bam bam bam bam bam :)

exams are hectic hectic hectic. just basically freezing inside the hall trying to write down all the facts i remember, hope i do well *cross fingers*

met bee after her work today~ saw alicia on the bus (hello alicia!)
went to try and service my phone :( but the LCD screen is broken, replacing it costs me a hundred bucks (wtfbbq?) so no replacing it for now :(

went to expo for the popular sale, got some Archie comic books and Singapore True Ghost Stories for the pig. we keep going to sales, good way to save money. lol *ahem cheapo*
thereafter to IKEA for hotdog hotdoggg. i only drank coke :)
saving space for my SUSHI from GIIIAAANNNTT. got some wicked couple shirts *teeheeee*
and one bottle of martel and one bottle of jack daniel's whiskey. my smirnoff vodka is getting lonely on my display shelf :) so now he has two friends!

tmr its time to study for remaining papers and do art. and work out! ooh i got workout gloves from giant also.

must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight must lose weight

2009-09-24T04:05:00.000-07:00

hello! exams these few days, met baby to go to orchard and there was this jap fest at isetan.. and we got same shirts from NUM :) with bam bam from flintstones on it :) i love it! same colour somemore

been freezing in the hall, went to donn's house on tuesday if i rmb correctly, hung out and ate popcorn and played with his camera

tmr is friday~ we'll be watching movie cos bee got her nebo card and we paid for chalet :D free movie pass yay~

i believe in forever!
pictures in facebook :)

if i were i boy.. i could walk around topless!

2009-09-21T05:05:00.001-07:00

fatty jamie flew off this morning..
i'll miss her. plus i hope she and her mommy are safe!

my first niece, yet i could only spend so little time with her.
hopefully she comes back sometime soon.

its prelims tmr.. hope i do well *fingers crossed*

2009-09-20T01:33:00.000-07:00

baby jamie!

went to bro's house today. see baby jamie. now she's sleeping on my parent's bed back home here. tmr she's flying off :(
i promise when i get older i'll go look for her and make sure she's safe:)

first time holding a baby omg. she's such a fatty. and so tall somemore.
dogs were so excited over her.
she drank a whole lot of milk too lol.

i miss bee :(
but selamat hari raya :DDDD

duit raya *salivates*

2009-09-19T04:14:00.000-07:00

went to expo today!
early in the morning and off to SIN! SUPER IMPORT NIGHTS.
many hot cars *gasps*
okay looking models *gasps*
pole dancing *gasps*
a very beautiful bee *gasps*

met sheepy and brandon, after that went to john little sale to get baby jamie stuff and my dad's birthday present :)
got him a nice black and red dri fit shirt so he can look hot while cycling with the helmet and shades :)

got baby jamie socks and shoes and this rattle and some clothes :)

had fun~ bee is so motherly.
she'll be the mother of my children
*wink wink*

PICTURES IN FACEBOOK!

2009-09-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

Superimportnight tmr :( hopefully can get money lo. or else i can't even go wtheck.
back from going out with bee to look for her rayer shoes :)
bee is super hot in heels i tell you. but she's too tall so she can't wear when i'm with her lol. i'm not short okay. just that she's above average height :(
i should start stuffing tissue paper in my shoes to make me taller.

got my red jacket from BHG! yay~ my jacketttttt. bee likes it too but i shall be selfish and not give it to her.

prelims in FOUR days. sunday is hari raya and bee will be visiting in her hot shoes and hopefully hot outfit (nothing to do with me) while i study like a good boy at home. monday i will study as well.

o levels in 38 days~ i hope i score well.

art was shit la please don't even get me started. i pasted everything in a rush and didn't put in the material i wanted to put in. in the end i just wrote rubbish on pieces of drawing block and pasted it in my prep work.
just my luck i hope i do better for the other paper.

prelim papers came in. i think i'll be doing twisted or something.
i dont like art when i'm forced to do it. me and the word "forced" or "pressure" don't go well.

okay byebye all time to sleep.
*Dies*

2009-09-16T03:19:00.000-07:00

hello! been busy busy since school started.
prelims are next week *gasps*
art submission is this friday *gasps*
o levels in 40+ days *gasps*

so all i've been doing work, trying to keep awake in class, art and meeting bee after school with the exception of today which i stayed in sch to do art.

so now i'm back and i need to do chemistry and some socialstudies revision and not to forget math.

my legs so pain

byebye~

2009-09-13T00:03:00.000-07:00

is there a breaking point for everything?

i dont want it to end but it feels like its breaking apart.

pullyourselftogether

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its those damn little things that make me fall right back in love again :)
*blush*

2009-09-12T10:51:00.001-07:00

RED BILLABONG JACKET AT ISETAN, I WILL GET YOU SOMEDAY SEXY!!

:( :( :( :(
my jackettttt. *whines*

2009-09-11T09:37:00.000-07:00

i wish i was dead

2009-09-11T04:42:00.000-07:00

how i wish money dropped from the sky, then you wouldnt have to go to work and leave me all alone at home.

:(

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fml

2009-09-10T11:37:00.001-07:00

I'm like a rookie paramedic to a siren,
Praying for an accident.
No they wont let me roll, till i've got no backup,
Until they're out of control.
this emergency brought you to me...

I'll be your doctor, i'll be your cure,
i'll be your medicine and more.
Yeah you've been rest assured, i'm your doctor,
im your cure. I'll be your cure.

I've got a secret, please don't repeat it.
I took the chemicals we took to make our chemistry.
And i remixed it, it didnt fix it.
All it did was make our memories a blur to me.
this emergency brought you to me...

don't leave me :)

2009-09-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

last night i went for late night walking arnd playing with sheep's dslr arnd the pasir ris estate, with reub from 8 until 11plus i guess. thn back home~
fight fight fight fight fight fight.
in th end i just fell asleep.

went to sch early in the morn tday at abt 1030 for the CCA colours award briefing and shit. taught us how to receive prizes and blah blah. award ceremony is on monday during assembly, we from UGs need to wear our uniform.. i need to dig out my uni and iron all that, don't even know if i can fit. fatness. MUST LEARN TO WALK STRAIGHT.

and must lose weight la. so fat now :( wanted to fast for this month but ended up eating twice as much wtf ah.

went to follow bee to rebond her hair at michelle's after lunch and shower. sat there for like 4 hours plus. i nearly murdered myself. so now she looks like power ranger with her flat head. i dont like girls with super straight hair. i dont mind dry ah, but straight hair like not even hair at all. i like those with long slightly wavy hair~ like the wind blow *sniffssss* mmmmmm nice shampoo smell. i dont mind ROMANCE perfume by RALPH LAUREN.

teeeheee bye everyone. i'm talking to amy the coconut~

2009-09-08T22:24:00.000-07:00

hello my dear blog!
i'm waiting for kway chap to come back omg *salivates*

went to sch early in th morning for chemistry today! ended early, instead of the scheduled 2.30 woots :) but bee is not free :( so went to hang out with deb bazang zyink reub sheep and darren :)
in the end everybady went home so here i am :)
facebook is screwed up so therefore i will watch youtube or listen to music and do my work!
while waiting for my kway chap :DDDD yuuuuuummm

tmr there is colours award briefing at 1030! another excuse to drag my sleepy butt off the bed early in th morning. after thaaat probably following sheepy to COMEX or smth.

i want to ask my sister to let me play with her DSLR but i dont think she'll let leh :(

missing beebee!

my L1R4 for prep is 23 *sniggers* so average for ea subject is 4.6. lousy like hell. buck up!

2009-09-08T05:15:00.000-07:00

hello all! blogger reduced the blogging space to half of what it originally was lol. whats is wrong with you bloggerrr.

MONDAY! chem was cancelled wheeehee, went to pick babe from work, then to eat bbq chicken (yummm) (the fish was velly velly fresh) then we went to giant! to buy alcohol and magnum and peanuts and kinder joy.
i now have one whole bottle of smirnoff vodka (hehehehehehehehehhh)
went to meet my dear brother reuben then we played card games and drank beer like ahpehs at the void deck :) played blackjack with kuahchee as money lol. funny shit.
then sent bee back home~ and myself home~ cooked curry maggie mee. that was the main highlight of the day (yummm)

TODAY!
today is bee's off day! we ate kfc (yum fatty chicken) we went rollerblading rollerblading but somebady didnt seem to have much mood. laughed at this guy falling on his ass then we slowly walked home! ate curry pop or smth. potato is good. back home!

tmr there is chemistry at eight in the morning :( siansations. EIGHT TO TWO THIRTY. *faints*
maybe i will cook more curry maggie mee later (yummm)

byebye world~

i feel like i'm starting to blog like someone. :(

2009-09-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

hello all/no one!
went out just now with dad to go pray at the temple, then to bro's house to get bills and fines to pay. smells like cigg smoke everywhere i swear. saw the baby, k la i won't be so bad, the baby is my niece. her name is jamie! she looks like a guy. so therefore i equate, she'll grow up to be just like me, A BUNG. and she will like girls la. (duh) with the similar blood like mine she'll attract all the ladies la okay. lol. fuck what is wrong with me.
and i saw my sister in law. i needed to call her da sao. like wtf it was so weird. i nvr had a sister in law bfore pls. k NVM! skip this part.
went to toapayoh to see pa's friend's pipe or smth.

then vrooom back home to bathe thn out again to wait for baby to end work. ate sushi and ate tomyum soup plus rice. tasted like fk. sent baby back home and lazed arnd in front of the teevee! and here i am. cos i couldnt sleep.

chem tmr is cancelled woooootsaaaaaa.
therefore, plan is to meet baby after work, hang out with her etc and send her home so she can break fast, then drinking with the guys!
k la the *guys* like alot of people but actually only have TWO :)
*sheepish look*

gdnight!!

2009-09-05T21:12:00.000-07:00

stop fucking pushing the blame to me.
i didn't touch your things, when you lose your own fucking things maybe you should thing where the fuck YOU put your things
stop talking about my friends cause they know how to shut up, unlike you two fucktards.

SHUTTTTTTUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.
fucking nag for 2 hours alr, you two have alot of fucking stamina right? SHUTUPPPPPP.

i wish i didn't fucking stay at home to listen to both of you talk CRAP

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went to baby's house last night with simphoni. fucking funny playing the raving rabbits game :) and had desert at macs after that lol.

what if you like azmi?!? *dies*

2009-09-05T02:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a good day :) met up with bee to go get a haircut :) i had a new cut while she thinned her hair, gosh the amount of her hair on the floor. hairy monster.
went to ehub to play guitar hero again, and then to catch the proposal.
then to the raya pasar malam at payalebar :) ate stuff and looked around. i wanna get the thing that guys wear for raya :) then baaaaack home. good day :)

i've been studying today, since i woke up :) good progress, i finished my chemistry work since monday is chemistry remedial. half way through math, i'll gonna go bathe now and to pick my bee from work :)
we're gonna play wii at her place! and eat black pepper noodles kak sinta's gonna cook.
woots :)

2009-09-03T03:53:00.000-07:00

parents should know when to shut up
i suffer from my mother's sarcasm :(
i've been crying alot, its bad :(

after dinner its study study until ten o clock
i think i failed my practical today

fml, i should just die.
i've no more mood to study.
life sucks

2009-09-02T00:54:00.000-07:00

You are lucky because you are good at a variety of different things. In general you are successful at things you are interested in, however you do have a tendency to get bored easily and sometimes don't follow things through to completion. You should avoid jobs involving detailed, routine tasks and focus of careers where you have the freedom and flexibility to be creative and interact with other people. You have natural leadership skills without the need to always be in charge. This coupled with your creativity and energy allows you to inspire others and make them willing to work with you.

Some of your personality traits include:

* Project-oriented
* Bright and capable
* Warmly, genuinely interested in people; great people skills
* Extremely intuitive and perceptive about people
* Able to relate to people on their own level
* Service-oriented; likely to put the needs of others above your own
* Future-oriented
* Dislike performing routine tasks
* Need approval and appreciation from others
* Cooperative and friendly
* Creative and energetic
* Well-developed verbal and written communication skills
* Natural leaders, but do not like to control people
* Resist being controlled by others
* Can work logically and rationally - use your intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it
* Usually able to grasp difficult concepts and theories

Some of your suggested careers are:

* Consultant
* Psychologist
* Entrepreneur
* Actor
* Teacher
* Counselor
* Politician / Diplomat
* Writer / Journalist
* Television Reporter
* Computer Programmer, Systems Analyst, or Computer Specialist
* Scientist
* Engineer

a facebook quiz :)
i'm going to bathe. sch was pretty blah, i had headache during math.
studying later :) bee is still at workkk

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Application for job as khai's husband/partner/otherhalf/boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/soulmate

name : jach chua
age : 15
PHONE NUMBER: 98566593
EMAIL: s0apb0x@hotmail.com
BIRTHDAY: 19th october 1993
HOROSCOPE: LIBRA
SCHOOL: PRCS

REASON FOR APPLYING :
Because I'm really falling for you. You hate what I’m putting you through. What have you done to me now, I just can't sleep at night.
You make it all better when I’m feeling sad, tell me that I’m special even when I know I’m not. I’m so glad I found you, I love being around you. You make it easy, as 1,2,3,4.
There’s only one way to say, those three words and that’s what I’ll do, I love you.
you make me happy, whether you know it or not, We should be happy that's what I said from the start, I am so happy knowing you are the one That I want for the rest of my days
i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you, you wanna touch me too, everyday and all i have is time, our love's the perfect crime.

ABILITIES:
I’m willing to send you home every single day,
I cook, clean, massage and eat leftover food that you can’t finish
I can protect you from ghosts
I am nice to lie next to
I can sing love songs to you all day long
I can talk to you for hours on end
I can hug you for hours on end
I can play lame games like runescape or habbo with you
i can carry your bag
i can hug you to sleep
i can protect you from dogs
i can play drums with you
i can rollerblade with you
i can play frisbee with you
i can walk along the beach with you

You can carry me wherever you go
I am low maintainence
You can bully me
You can make out with me whenever you want

Most of all, I am for FREEEEEEEEE!

DISADVANTAGES:
I am scared of lizards.
i am fat

TERMS AND CONDITIONS:
You cannot refuse cause you have alr been with me for 7 months plus =)

i keep my promise for as long as i wear our ring on my finger, that we'll always have fun no matter how old we are, where we are.

2009-09-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

HELLO ALL!
omg these two days have been W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L!
k la the teacher's celebration was abit crap, but i think the part about quidditch and harrypotter was pretty interesting :) i hated it that zafrul and kambeng junior kept trying to like steal the limelight. so shameless.

after school! that's where the fun begins~
went home to change into this :

k la i know very shameless but at least let me whore myself for abit can. stupid blogger doesnt allow me to upload pictures and stuff. so photobucket will do the trick!

went to meet beebee after her work woohooo. went to tanah merah to meet her friends, simphoni bellra and michelle! (my memory so great) took the bus to the cool changi chalets.
so chio ah the rooms~ its like a classy house, instead of the ugly downtown east or loyang bungalows.

met many of her other friends! they were nice :)i can't really rmb names but i think i rmb wanting and koonteng and the girl in the red shirt LOL. they were nice :) i talked to michelle for the first time ahahaha. at least now i know that she doesnt dislike me or something.

they gossip gossiped upstairs and all i just tried to join in by listening and saying pretty general things. hahah :) i rmb i said something like "i think she will look like a ghost". heh! funny funny funny :)

we played rockband and mahjong! now i know who is alfresco, and jiaming, and prashant, and xianfu. not like they kno me but whatever. eugene was okay :) xianfu sang super funnily and we failed the stage lol. he sang with so much intensity but in the end we still failed lol :)

everyone was nice! and i was happy :) we took bus back home! we bought pizza (its still in my fridge) and the cheeseburger i ate in the middle of the night!
baby came and was scared of poor cuby (again). he was so blur and furry :)
the stupid aircon refused to work, i had to clean up the room again, then it was ON THE BED! :DDDDDDDDD

whatever happened next is private and confidential :) so nice to have bee right next to me :) in the morning we had to wake up early! the pig refused to wake up. so i had to bathe first... then bee had to bathe and i was inside the toilet *winkwink* then it was off to work!

i studied for 4 whole hours :( my brain cells died. then it was bee's break, trisha came to hang out, then bee's off to work and sandy came~ walked around and around and around for about 2hours i guess. haha. then they went to library and i carefully examined everything on the shelves of ColdStorage. they only sell two brands of hummus! and they sell baba ganush too :) yummy. and they sell lotsa lotsa wine and stuff like that. i was so bored i bought sushi and went to sit at the carpark.

bee finally finished work, then we were off to Ehub! to play GUITARHEROOOOOOO~
its was only $7! omg omg omg cheap shiat :D the drums weren't working so we both played guitar :) it was nice~ then we played wiisports. bee completely pwned me at wiisports while i pwned her at guitarhero :) and we ate.

here comes the STUPID AND FUNNY PART.
we moved from the wii section to the seats. i carried her bag. i left MY BAG, containing my papers and assessment, and pencil case, calculator, house keys plus her ipod at the wii section. and we happily ate.
we even went to the toilet. then to GELARE. GELARE!!!! and we finished our waffle with icecream (cos its tuesday half price heeheeee) we walked out of ehub. WITH MY BAG STILL UPSTAIRS IN THE WII SECTION. and happily walked to the busstop. then on the bus.
when we were reaching my house i realised. MY BAG IS MISSING.

it was it ehub. i swear i think my brain just died or switched off. i lost my wallet the other day and now my BAG. NEXT TIME I'M GOING TO FORGET TO WEAR PANTS.

so bee had to continue the bus ride alone :( sorry baby. then i had to take bus back to ehub and go upstairs. HENG AH MY BAG WAS STILL THERE. :) lucky lucky me. and i took bus back :) funny shit. now i am here blogging :) i still have two piece chicken from KFC lol.

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bee! it was nice to be right next to you last night :) sorry that the aircon didn't wanna work, and my dad made so much noise. next time (hopefully there will be a next) i promise there wont be anymore disturbances to your beauty sleep alright my beautiful lady :)

lastly... I LOVE YOUUU. muahahaaa.

you add colours to my everyday

2009-08-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

today was a great day!
i successfully resisted my dad's attempt to make me go to my bro's stupid buffet. in the end i received a very nice ____ from him. but but but! i made it out of my house to meet my dear BEEBEE!

we met and then we went walking in the rain! what a nice time. altho my slippers kept getting sand in em, but it was nice talking to bee on our way to 201:)
took 12 to EXPOOOO!
good things and bad stuff both happened at Expo :(
good stuff first, bee got her two shirts for work that starts tmr! and we got adidas perfume, she got some flora smelling one and i got FRESH VIBES. smells abit like peppermint and stuff. i like it :) and she got some nice nice slippers and a nice top that looks like edhardy and i got a lame picture frame that was on sale! TWO DOLLARS ONLY. good deal. *winkwink*

then we went to the toilet, i pulled down my pants and my wallet fell out of my back pocket, i placed it on top of the toilet paper thingy. then i happily went out AND FORGOT ABOUT MY WALLET. i still stupidly had time to look at my hair and slowly wash my hands. SOME FREAKING AUNTIE WHO WENT TO THE TOILET TOOK IT! SOME INCONSIDERATE DISHONEST OLD BITCH! plus, my wallet had NO MONEY IN IT. neither did it have my ic, but it had my EZ LINK CARD! AND THE WALLET WAS THE FIRST THING THAT _____ GAVE ME!

so i cried :( then i went to the info counter to report loss. then i saw zena, and ms wong on a date with mr tan. then i called my mama. :( i made all the calls to cancel the ez link card and stuff, then like a bright shining light, bee cheered me up with some burger king goodness:) then i was happy while munching on fries.

then we decided to go to tampines mall! we walked around, first time baby played drums with me at the arcade! she was good for a beginner :) i'll teach you drums okay bee! you'll be super pro in no time :) we went to isetan and tried on clothes :)
bee bought me board shorts and billabong tee. i added some colour into my rather dull wardrobe :) soon i'll get rainbow coloured clothes okay. saw donn at fox!

we went to buy bee's working skirt at THISFASHION. bahaha :) we wanted to go to Ehub and play rockband but we decided to play more drums at the arcade heh. then we ate some chicken chop! and then we saw simphoni and a friend of bee who's name i forgot heh. then we went home :)

today was a greaaat day! tmr bee is starting work, i wish her luck! :)

2009-08-29T03:07:00.000-07:00

hello all!~
today is a boring day. i woke up at about 1plus in the afternoon. i feel so unmotivated!

tomorrow someone's starting work! my poor girl i'm going to miss you and i hope you won't fall sick or anything. :) have fun at work!

tmr my stupid brother is having the marriage ceremonial tea ceremony. some buffet too.
hmmm but whats the point? he alrd fucked the china woman and their baby girl is alr more than one month old. he moved out without even saying a word, he basically only keeps in contact with my dad.
whats the point of doing the ceremonial tea ceremony when you didn't have the basic respect to inform everyone you were gonna get "married" with this random china woman and she alr gave birth to a baby. whats up with the pre maritial sex? if you're trying to prove that you're "capable" and is able to support a family of your own, this isn't proving anything.
when i got news of you crashing your rented car into a stationary squad car i fucking laughed my intestines out.
nothing you do will ever make me consider that i have a brother in the first place.

i can never forget the very faithful day that you went bonkers high on drugs and whacked mummy's arm until she got a huge bruise. and you broke the antique chair that mummy and papa worked so hard to buy in order to make this home a nice one.
i can never forget the day you broke jie's room door, and it ended up without a fucking doorknob, we had to tie a nylon string through the hole that was once the doorknob and connect it to the beside table.
i can never forget that i had to look out at the corridor before i opened the door to home just in case someone else was following me back home, cause of your fucking loan sharks caused by you.
i can never forget walking to school in the mornings and seeing your fucking unit number sprawled on the wall in spray paint saying "O$P$".
i can never forget that you made my father cry.

i'm much happier in this family when you were in jail. at least i know that no one will come knocking on my door in the middle of the night. and my house will never smell like cigarette smoke.
i'm much happier now that you don't live here anymore.

maybe its cause of you i never got to go overseas anymore? maybe its cause of you we never really go out as a family anymore. i still remember a few years back we would always go out as a family to eat dinner outside, just for a treat. now that just rarely happens, or never ever happens at all.

so what if i smoke? so what if i have an attitude problem? so what if i'm lazy and unmotivated to study, so what if i steal? i've stopped all that. i admit, i say some hurtful stuff to my parents. i do things to make them disappointed. but i vow to never become such an ungrateful fucker like you.

maybe its also cause of you that i never ever receive praise from my family. but i think its cause they dont ever want me to become an ungrateful fucker like you. its their way of motivating me, just in a much harsher way.

i'm gonna let myself become a fucker like you, i'm gonna study, go way past where you were, a retarded drop out from poly without a diploma, i'm gonna get a good job, and earn tons of money. not like you, acting rich with the car and condo and shit. you're just a fucker that has never achieved anything, and just caused suffering to the people around you.

phew. at least that's out of my system.

2009-08-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

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my keychain shoppppp!

thursday
met bee and went to eat swensons:)she ate fish and chips
went to get a kite and two yo-yos lol. such childish things we do.
went over to the open field near downtown, the new road, and flew our kite. although there wasn't much wind we managed to make it fly high :)

today
skipped school for a meet up with bee.
blah at the start it was bad. don't wanna talk about it.
flew the kite and bee made the kite get stuck in the tree. its the picture of an eagle so i guess the eagle wanted to stay in the tree. she got it stuck so she managed to un-stuck it! :)

we learnt rollerblading! fucking fell on my ass countless times and was just clinging onto the railings at first. but i did it! i learnt how to rollerblade! finally. bee was so pro alr lo. zoom here zoom there. but she fell twice! so therefore i am not the bad. exhausted like hell ah. but addictive.

we ate komala's! some indian version of fast food. indian food with coke! we had paper thosai i think. i like the green mushy stuff with the red chilli inside. god knows what the hell the sauce is but i like it. and i love coke~ that fizzy fizzy drink that gives the most comfortable feeling.

went to play "balance wrestling" at the balancing beam at some random fitness corner. haha made me think back on my primary school days. fun shiat :)

today was a very very fun day! i returned home lazing around on mirinda orange and the stupid frozen chicken wings my mom bought. and i messed around with the electric keyboard just now, playing the dj mode and electronic drums. but something made me so pissed off!

i want to go jamming! argh its just bloody bad timing that hj has examinations. but me, meiling and leo are still here! i don't get the need for the new vox and keyboardist. argh so pissifying. the more i think about it the more i get fed up about it!

i have the craving to go jamming, i just want it to be the four of us again. i know i made the greatest mistake by forgetting my lyrics at our gashaus gig. but i remember vividly how much fun we had playing at Raffles Institution's grad night. i can never forget how we messed around at the toilets at the grand copthorne, styling our hair, how mas made the amps for us, and when we played, it was just like heaven. but then i made this huge huge huge mistake, that'll never bring us back to how we were before.

maybe i just think too much, maybe you guys don't feel the same way as i feel. i understand you guys already have your own different lives, its like there's a transition in your lives that have caused you to change, going to different schools, the need to adapt to different environments and the need to take up different responsibilities made you guys into totally different people!

i am still who i am and who i was, just the plain old Jach studying in secondary school.
i hope when its time for me to graduate from secondary school and move on to another chapter in my life i will not feel the need to change.

2009-08-25T21:46:00.000-07:00

just woke up with a pretty bad headache in the morning, just decided to not go to school and embrace my "black" side, listening to hip hop while lying in bed the whole morning.

now time to get to work! after my shower i just grabbed a bite of the doughnut on the kitchen table, just realised i was sposed to fast (damnit) so.. i guess i'm not fasting today lol.
havent brushed my teeth, but the f&n fizzy orange drink cleaned up my teeth just fine.

off to do the graduation video for prom on november 20th. i wonder what i'm gonna wear. i hope i don't decide to wear a dress tho. lol or else i need a weirdly shaped on to cover up my tattoo. i figure i'll just go with a suit or something then :)

2009-08-25T00:30:00.000-07:00

today was a drama filled day..
ms shelia didn't come. neither did ms wong. neither did ms soon.
therefore the whole day was a free day.

firstly, there was conflict between reub and yat. the backrow people ohhh the backrow people. we have had so many conflicts with each other, yet we still sit at the back, TOGETHER. ahahha. and after conflicts, we can still sit next to each other. lol weird bunch we are.

secondly, ms chua came to nab people having camera phones. i admit i was taking photos outside class. but i was doing it for the graduation video! and when ms chua came into the class i swore she wasn't staring at me, so that's my second excuse. i'm clean! i ended up stuffing my phone into the pants i wore inside my skirt, and the others just stuffed phones into their shoes, socks and stuff. what an experience.

thirdly, randy had his PMS outburst again. i understand school is stress blah blah etc. but please don't vent your anger at others again. i swore i wanted to smack his face there and then. when people shun you, maybe its time to do a little self reflection on how you should improve your character. you change for people, not the people change for you. so yep. even if you have family problems and what not, why must you flare up and irritate the whole bunch of us. and quote, "i hate this class". well, then go find another one! crazy ass.

i love my class. its just that we're a mix of so many weird people.
o levels are in two months, school probably ends in maybe another three or more months. why the sudden conflict, we should appreciate our time together while it still lasts. soon we'll be off to our own new lives, who will be the ones who will think back and remember 4/6 class of 2009? i'm sure i'll be one of them.

my fourth day of fasting, i'm starting to get used to going without water and food.
i'll be looking forward to my dinner later :)

2009-08-24T00:03:00.000-07:00

did CIP yesterday, tired crap. kept repeating "hi would you like to donate". some people just ignored me and walked away. talk about our gracious society.
but, i thank the people who stopped by to dig into their pockets for loose change :) although i'm forced to do this fund raiser thing, but in the end its still for a good cause i guess.

my mom scolded this old man for accidentally spilling 7-up on her slippers at the 7th month auction dinner thing. gosshh. he's just an old man and it was just an accident. talk about gracious society again. my own mother at that.

and you, please have a bit more originality, i know you often call others as "copying" you, so you think you're so very in style. but just the usage of a term on your loved one, you have to even follow others? i used to have tons of respect for you, but this respect just disappeared into dust. you weren't worth my respect at all.

so what if you're a homophobe. then you can just go along and live in your homophobic world. you have to right to deny people the right to love, or their right to be happy whoever their being with. its this sort of shallow people that prevent our society from moving forward into the new era.
*sigh* shall not bombard you with words, as my facebook fortune cookie of the day says, "strong and bitter words only show weakness".

i don't wish to turn to violence to solve my problems anymore. as you said, "lets treat this like mature adults". talk about being mature and being an adult. maybe your pea sized brain is clouded by the massive volume of fats in your body. maintain your own relationship before coming fourth to challenge mine numbskull.

enough of anger and violence. i haven't uttered a single cuss or swear word today. neither have i had any evil thoughts that i would usually have. i feel so proud of myself.

fasting gives me enlightenment. i feel so enlightened. lol.
those simple things that give you total understanding of your state of mind..

*faraway look*

i guess bee was right, blogs are for people who "Feel the need to express their emotions" :)

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met bee just now and ate kfc! delicious juicy chicken and fizzy pepsi!
i feel so happy now. and i appreciate food much much more.
and as a result, i feel fat. :)

2009-08-22T01:25:00.000-07:00

tmr there's CIP! i'm so lazy to go :( 1.45pm at st andrew's cathedral. omg so uncomfortable working near a church.
selling bookmarks. wtf completely not something a normal human like me would do.
after that there's dinner at old house! i will meet so many people i dont know.

and i'm an auntie. my brother and the china woman gave birth to a baby girl. one month old alr i think. i feel so old :( so not ready to take up the challenge.

its me against the world!

vicious cycle. i got myself into a love hexagon! omg so complicating :(

but..

shiok. :D

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i havent ate since i woke up. fasting! hahha

2009-08-21T23:36:00.001-07:00

i want to die so bad right now.

2009-08-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

fuck this bullshit. all a fucking lie

2009-08-21T09:15:00.000-07:00

wow such a new look. blogger finally stopped being an idiot and returned back to normal. took such a long time for it to stop being stupid :)

today's school was fine. was pretty amused by charmian's mian wahid story. haha stupid pakistani guy. helping her with "businesses of life" and all that shit.
physics was pretty okay. we stalled time by talking about poly education and our salary in the future and all that. i'm really not sure about what i want to do with my life :(
self study was boring crap so i just did physics practice papers. in total mrs koh gave eleven sets from different secondary schools omg.

after school, went home and out to meet bee. went all the way to cine just to realise we're not gonna watch movie lol. ate kfc and couldn't finish. i think now the fries and a quarter of a banditio is still inside her bag.
shopped around, went to heeren and then to orchard centre. nice place, and i made a new friend! lol a tattoist at primitive ink. him name is XIAO P. but he's not small at all. big chunky guy with chubby handshake. bahahaaa. but nice art. i wanna get inked so soon :( everything revolves around money money money!

ended the date at some random void deck :) we talked for hours. but if you still think about her. i think you should let her know. i alr put so much into this relationship i don't really care if i get hurt. now i realise its kinda foolish to want so many things out of our relationship. you still have so many other people to choose from, one day you'll eventually get sick of me. as you said, you want your fair share of flirting and relationships. all that stuff. maybe someday you'll just leave me. i'll never know.

but till then, i've no qualms about giving my all into this relationship.

*sigh* emo moment. i think i'm going to sleep now :)
good luck to all those starting the fasting month tmr :)

/edit
damn i spend like the hour watching Miami Ink and LA Ink :( can't wait to get somemore ink damnit

2009-08-20T01:03:00.000-07:00

I FAILED ENGLISH
:( i failed my english prep exams by a teeny bit. but i guess i'll be able to buck up and work harder.
bee is off for her cold storage job interview :) wish her lotsa luck!

jamming this weekend, i'm so excited :D but art submissions are on monday, i'm still left with two boards and a little bit of my canvas left undone, i hope i can finish them soon.
i spend like 2 hours plus doing my new blogskin and stuff, now its time to take a nice shower and study study study!

life is good and i'm happy with my life right now :)

/edit
its been kinda 3 hours and i havent started on my art work yet lol :)
i'm eating prunes and baby got the job~ woots good for her. hopefully she doesn't get lazy lol

sevenmonths!

2009-08-19T05:44:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS MIRACLE DAY!
190109 - 190809
seven months~

its been a heck of a time,
a ball of fun
filled with everything i ever wanted
everything i wanted to feel

aaaanddd
I LOVE YOU! wheeeeehooooooaaaaaahhhhhhhuuuuuuuu

:)

ohohoh and i got back my o level results for chinese today.
i got a b3 for my paper and a distinction for my oral! *gasspsss*
i did it! i passed my freaking o level chinese :) but i want to retake and try getting an A1!!
i'm so motivated to study right now :)

someone's starting to fast this saturday :) don't worry i'll be there to suffer with you!
although we quarrel and sometimes i get pissed off and say rubbish, i never mean it, and i really love you :)

baby it's fact, our love is true :)

2009-08-18T02:58:00.000-07:00

either blogger has a problem or i have a problem with blogger. its screwing up.

here i am
once again

i don't want to fail my o levels
i don't want to drop to N(a)
i don't want to retake my o levels
i don't want to retain

i want to G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E-W-I-T-H-F-L-Y-I-N-G-C-O-L-O-U-R-S.
therefore, (dot dot dot)

revision starts from TODAY.

i have SIX DAYS TO COMPLETE MY ART
i have 70+ DAYS TO O LEVEL

I AM FAILING MY SUBJECTS
I AM GOING TO DIE

bye computer i'll miss you :(
bye movies i'll miss you :(
bye slacking i'll miss you :(

BUT MY NEW LIFE STARTS IN THREE MONTHS.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait

2009-08-16T01:29:00.001-07:00

life sucks.

2009-08-09T22:30:00.001-07:00

come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon come home soon

i miss you come home soon. :(

2009-08-09T10:42:00.000-07:00

2009-08-07T15:41:00.000-07:00

my heart aches with every second of your absence.

2009-07-23T23:46:00.000-07:00

seriously i really really don't mind assssss

omg *thinks about someone*

this is funny :)

2009-07-22T02:30:00.001-07:00

i can't get enough of goremy :DDDD

2009-07-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

omg i want the loop station so bad

2009-07-20T23:39:00.000-07:00

your beauty is unmatched
your smile so sweet
without you its impossible
to make it through the week

you're the one i think about all day and night
cause when i'm right next to you it feels so right :)

i love you khaaaai :)

2009-07-20T02:17:00.001-07:00

2009-07-17T08:53:00.000-07:00

six months soon :)

2009-07-16T00:29:00.000-07:00

i lost my direction
and more than that.

2009-07-09T04:01:00.000-07:00

watching kumar. super bloody funny.
only a few singaporeans dare to speak up against the others. singapore is abit like maycomb.
prejudice is evident but there's people like Atticus and Dolphus Raymond. Kumar, Hossan Leong etc.

i cannot take randy's gay voice during class. cannot take grace loh's nagging. just like my mother lidat. builds up my tolerance.

art sucks. i know la, my fault for not going during holidays. but at least let me start on my canvas. pulling me back even more sia. i can't stay at school to do my art ah. cannot tahan that kind of atmosphere and stuffy art room.

most of all, i miss khai.

2009-07-06T06:37:00.001-07:00

bee has fever =(

*worried face*

2009-07-06T00:57:00.000-07:00

damnit i want a guitar and drumset so bad. argh =( sitting around during holidays makes you want stuff =(

time to bathe and full speed ahead~

2009-07-05T09:22:00.000-07:00

my awesome wonderful wife with her sparkly eyes and adorable smile :)

taokaenoi is all mine.

2009-07-03T22:27:00.000-07:00

haiz.
SSS - sunday study sessions.
something to look forward to after every sickening week.
my motivation to study.

gone~

/edit

2009-07-02T19:30:00.000-07:00

chinese oral in 3andahalf hours.
dieeee i can't speak chinese for nuts sia.
wtf conversation. i don't know what is recycle in chinese.

die die die die die.
andd got my phone back!

i love spending time with you :)
just sitting at the busstop or carpark or basically any random place to talk to each other :)
you just make me fall deeper and deeper in love as everyday comes :)

/edit
cheebye chinese oral was a fucking killer. but had fun in the waiting room destroying computers and looking through com parts and taking some back :D
met baby and went to ECP to play frisbee. ate seafood *salivates*
fucking madman at carpark fucking barked at us. ran down the stairs like i've never ran in my life. sent bee home then called police.
fucking mad man i hope you burn in hell.

i realise i depend on the police so much.
brother beat up mother - i call police.
people write on the walls - i call police
people fight - i call police
people overturn flower pot outside my house - i call police
mad man barks at me - i call police

LOL police ily~

2009-07-01T02:35:00.000-07:00

still as much stuff to complete now, even after i've typed out my summary of history notes since i lost my history file and textbook.
whats left to do : art final layout, get it on transparency and get it up on canvas by the weekend, chemistry notes, photocopy the whole lot, complete math arithmetic worksheet thingy, study for my olevel chinese oral this friday, go do my cip on saturday.

woot the week's going along pretty fast. prep exams end of this month, o levels in 4months.
urgency urgency!

i'll just eat chocolates and laze around for 5 minutes first heeeeh :)

i miss you alot.

2009-06-29T00:14:00.000-07:00

waaaaah. today was the first day of school. i couldn't really sleep the night before tho. woke up at 2.44 after dreaming that me and bee went to do magic at walmart all the way in the us. had trouble falling asleep thereafter.

i felt like my eyeballs were gonna pop when i woke up in the morning.

my uniform wasn't outside, i had to go and take it from the cupboard...
my dog started barking.. i had to get him out of the cage...
i had to wash up etc... i had to make sure i brought all my stuff.. i had to fill my bottle.. i had to take money from my dad... i had to wear my skirt..
no socks on my shoes.. i had to take my socks from the cupboard.. i had to put the tongue in my shoes... i had to wear my socks... wear my shoes.. open the door... check myself in the mirror.. open the door... see if it was too early to go out... go out... lock the door... put my keys in my bag...

you get the drift.

lessons were draggyyyy~ but i was happy to be in sch with the backrow peeps.
had a few laughs here and there. had health check. seems to have someth wrong with my left eye.
o level mother tongue oral's this friday.. got to read some chinese newspapers cause i read chinese like how an angmoh reads chinese.. and i've got to work on my conversation.

art... need to plan my final layout and stuff.. and actually go for art class sometime LOL.

aaand.. i'm missing my beautiful lady so much...

what a draggy day..........................................................
i realise its only 3.30. so damn early. myyyy goodness.

lol this is fucking funny

2009-06-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

formal day today~
ate yummy yummy qiji and went to watch "i love you man" at tamp mall.
bee sees people she knows EVERYWHEREEE. blaah.
went to kovan to find lingling after that, talked and caught up with times :)
always nice to have a chat with mx fel and lingling. met this other girl, if i'm not wrong her name was mandy or smth like that.
played a little pool, then off to take 81 back with beebee.

i love you velly velly much :)

/edit
ohoh and michael jackson passed away. there was this youtube video -
and this comment from some random guy -
well since he was made of plastic , they should recycle him into building blocks so the kids can play with him for once lmao

LOL fuck that made me laugh so hard. i think he had too much surgery.
others should stop thinking they're so close to MJ and being sad about his death.

whatever happened to the sympathy they shouldve gave to freddie mercury? just cause he was gay he gets so much bullshit. and stupid childmolester plastic face MJ gets so much love.
bullshit

2009-06-25T08:36:00.001-07:00

LOL i just found my old blog. it seems that some random porn advertisement posted itself on my old blog hehhehhehh.

had lotsa fun today, prawning at townpark and sending it to the nearby restaurant to cook as cereal prawns :D yummmm.
had a lesson on how to catch prawns by this random lady, she was nice :D
i rmb how the wormy bit bee and how i killed all the worms in the container by chopping.
and i got angry cause no prawns wanted to be caught by us.
and my bloody fingers from cutting the HAAM. cockle thingy.

can't wait for tmr. fun fun fun. :)

me love you dahleng~

2009-06-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

i dont wanna go to school D:
i got cough and my eyes hurt, i'm vulnerable to bird flu and swine flu so watch out, home quarantine me for about.. 6 weeks please.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0a6vS-V_5r4
i like the piggy back :D

new shelving from ikea woots

pictures found online ah. its like this when empty.

imagine it with the box box as a door, i have some red doors and black doors inside some of the storage squares.
i have some red drawers and black drawers to put into some storage squares too.
and some red transparent-like storage boxes like the blue and green ones to put inside some storage squares
and some storage squares will be empty.

188cm x 188cm.

CHIO NOT. woooooots

i really really love you. thats why it hurt so much. now i get it.
i cry like a baby!

2009-06-21T10:52:00.001-07:00

so numb.
i cant feel with a numb heart.

2009-06-20T10:40:00.001-07:00

the way your eyes twinkle when you smile
the sound of your laugh
the way you exclaim and get excited at things
the way you say qiji
the way you say dapao
the "mmm" face you make
the way you ruffle my hair
the way you hook your arm around mine
the way you hold my hand
the way you put your hand on your forehead to cover it with your hair
the way you sneeze
the way you run like an excited kid
the way you choose clothes for me
the way you get excited over pens
the way you yawn like a walrus
the feeling of your head on my shoulder
the feeling of hugging you
the feeling when you kiss me
the feeling when i know you care about me
the feeling when you kiss me
the feeling when you tell me you love me

i'll be the one to massage your temples when you get a headache
i'll be the one to massage your stomach when you get a stomach ache
i'll be the one to massage your feet when you're tired
i'll be the one to crack your knuckles when you need it
i'll be the one to play silly games for you
i'll be the one who'll cook for you
i'll be the one to wash your hair
i'll be the one to comb your hair
i'll be the one to stroke your hair when you sleep
i'll be the one to wipe your tears away when you cry
i'll be the one to take care of you when youre sick
i'll be the one to get anything for you when you need it

I want you to be the one i lie next to everyday in bed
I want you to be the one who cares the most about me
I want you to be the one who takes care of me
I want you to be the one who makes me smile
I want you to be the one who brightens up my day
I want you to be the one i live my everyday for
I want you to be the one i work hard to achieve for
I want you to be the one who strokes my hair
I want you to be the one who i hug to sleep
I want you to be the one i can always talk to
I want you to be the one i can depend on
I want you to be the one i can cry on

cause you're the one for me, i had the time of my life when i'm with you.

i dont care what it takes, all that matters is you with me and me with you.
when i'm with you i forget everything else. i dont care about anyone else cause you mean the most to me. i need you so much.

i'm sorry i was angry. i'm sorry i walked away and didn't turn back. i'm sorry i wasn't there to give you my shoulder to cry on today. i'm sorry. i really am.

please come back to me. i'm begging you.
i can never love the same way without you.

i love you and i'll always do. please take me back?

2009-06-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpmILPAcRQo

watch it!

i had the time of my life, and i owe it all to you :D

had looootsa fun with bee today and the tinys :)
played playdoh with nufayl, then went to playground, then to buy cookie stuff :)
made cookies with nufayl!
then we all fell asleep after mac and cheese and a little bit of wolverine on the teevee :)

went out with bee after that :)
giant and ikea once again heh :)
my wonderful idea with candles and it turned out damn nice :)

woots five months!

2009-06-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

the more days go by, the more i fall in love with you :)

/edit
i just witnessed a couple of 3 years breaking up.
i realise how important trust is in a relationship now,
and i'm confident to say i trust you a 100% :)

i hope you never ever misuse my trust for you :)

happy 5th month :)